Ok, so it has been a few weeks since I have posted anything about my pregnancy, about how Evie is doing, or about anything at all!! Sorry, folks!
Overall, we are all doing well. Evie is growing more every day - I can definitely tell by how strongly she is kicking me! I may only be 25 weeks along, but her strength at this stage amazes me. Derek was able to feel her moving last night. She gave him an entire acrobatic routine! I think she may like her daddy :)
Speaking of her daddy...I knew that I would love the idea of him being a dad. He has always been good with kids. But when he turned to me yesterday and said, "guess what, in a few months, we're going to be parents!!!" with so much enthusiasm, it really hit me just how thrilled about it he really is, and how much I love him for it. He is going to be a great dad to our little girl. I am so blessed to be able to share this experience with him.
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On a different note.. I know I was nervous, scared - petrified, really - when we discovered that we were expecting. Slowly and finally, over the last few months, and better yet, the last few weeks, that fear has turned to joy and excitement. I have always wanted kids, so don't think that I didn't. But I wanted to be a little more financially sound. You know, have my credit cards paid off, and have at least one student loan gone so that extra money could go toward babies and the never ending diapers and clothes. I wasn't expecting to struggle and fear where the money for the water bill was coming from, on top of having to think about starting to buy diapers now before baby gets here.
Finances have been the toughest part about this whole pregnancy. I honestly wish I could just let it go so I can enjoy my pregnancy. I really hope I'm not the only one who has these scary nagging thoughts that interrupt the most precious part of your life. But even as much as I try, I can't help but worry.
A few weeks ago, we talked about a passage in the bible about letting things go and knowing that God has it under control. Trust that he will take care of it. I have tried to think of that verse every day since Amy spoke about it at Rivertree. And though I still have those scary "how are bills getting paid this month" thoughts in the back of my head; in the last couple of weeks, I have really tried to make an effort to not let it get to me. Evie is our first child, she deserves her parents full attention and love, no matter how rich or poor we end up.
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