As Serious As…...

It's been sinking in for about two weeks now, and I'm slowly warming up to the idea of actually becoming a mom.  It's still scary as all get out, but it's starting to become reality and definite rather than a mean joke or a dream.

We told our parents, bosses, and best friends.   Now we wait until I'm far enough along to tell the world.  I thought it would be around new year's, but when I went to the OB/GYN, they estimated July 7th, so I'm currently 7 weeks along, so we'll get to spread the word early.  (which by the way, this all deserves it's own rant…how can I be three weeks farther than I really am simply because my last period started at the end of September, but conception happened 3 weeks into October?)  So cray.  Yes, I said cray.  It deserved a cray moment.

But, I'm accepting that and realizing the reality that I will have to cancel two of my weddings for I will be too far to handle the stress of a wedding day, and just have given birth and will be too exhausted to stay awake for an entire wedding.  Sad day.

Now, it's time to start thinking about insurance, bottle or boob, names, birthing center or hospital, and so many other decisions that I can barely keep my head on straight.  I'll keep you updated as decisions are made.    For now, here's a photo of me actually feeling awake and pretty since finding out about the wee little parasite zygote.